It’s 8:30 in the morning and I can’t find the remote to watch the news so I am forced to sit here and listen to this silent house mixed with the very happy to be alivebirds outside. My chest is bothering me a lot today already. I know its all because of too much stress and too much not dealing with it but really, its just much more fun looking at the bright side of everything. I guess you could say I’ve been wearing rose colored glasses lately. I just kind of feel like I am losing myself. Like, I don’t do anything anymore. I’m always so busy. I’ve got to start taking time out to do stuff for myself. I am more happy than I have been in a long time really but it just seems like I am getting all caught up in how wonderful everything is in that aspect of my life that I am letting everything else fall apart. I mean, my relationship is the best I could ask for, I am moving in with the guy that I love and I am still working with my best friends. BUT I am losing ME. But that is all going to change. Maybe I am just changing and this is me adapting to everything new. I’ve never been good with change and it takes me a minute to adjust to how things will be now and I really just need to take my own time to sit and think about how I feel about everything before I put off that I am okay. I mean, I am okay. I just take time to adjust, even to things that I want. It still takes time and I need to take the time to adjust and quit just keeping myself busy and avoiding it. Today I am going to do a few things that need to be done and other than that I am going to just relax and watch some movies maybe.