October 2011
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starting weight is 178.6 …time to change that shit. GW1: 160 by Christmas.
I’m seriously unhappy with my looks. Like, my skin is so PALE. I am like a fucking ghost. Translucent. I want to be like a middle eastern girl they are SO fucking beautiful. Dark skin, dark hair, dark eyes…I’m jealous. Contemplating going to buy fake tanner and dyeing my hair black tonight. …LETS DO IT.
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bitching.
I quit school, why, because I fucking want to. Is that not a good enough reason? I will not die if I don’t have a college degree in the next few years. What is so unacceptable about not going to school? Does everyone have to be so stuck in the 90’s that in order to be successful I must pursue some sort of multi thousand dollar degree? Seriously, since when did not only my family,...
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here goes nouthing
OKAY. Tomorrow I am going to start a serious weight loss plan. I am going to lose weight..why not? I have been wanting to for literally years and its about damn time to start doing things for myself…so here goes nouthing. I am going to limit my foods a lot and only drink water or unsweet tea…cut out sugar completely and work out daily even if it is just a yoga class….I will start...
When does being single get less sucktastic? It’s embarrassing to even say how long I’ve actually technically single. See, my ex and I have talked on a regular basis, been “friends”, and all of that other jazz since about a month after we broke up. I go back and forth between weather or not if I want to attempt a relationship with him or not …I mean it obviously...
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oh, you know, just praying to a goddess.
Artemis, huntress of the moon, make my aim true. Give me goals to seek and the constant determination to achieve them.
Grant me communion with nature, allow me to live surrounded by plants and animals that I can grow, protect and nurture.
Allow me the strength and wisdom to be my own mistress, not defined by the expectations of others.
And sustain my sexuality to be as yours — wild and free...
I'm sad today.
I am usually pretty content with my lack of significant other/ other people to be responsible of but today I am a little jealous. My facabook consist entirely of people and their husbands or girlfriends whatever and children. I can’t help but feel like I am the one behind the curve rather than the majority of them fell into an ” adult” life far far before me. I know that to each...
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today.
I could just cry. I have no clue why I am so sad today…I’ve been watching a documentary about a farm in south LA…they started coming in to shut it down with police and so much unnecessary violance and here I starting to get emotional about a movie made years ago about people I will never know…
It just amazes me how many civil rights and just human rights are violated...
today.
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fail.
I decided to turn my lights out,turn some John Mayer on, and do some yoga in my room earlier after everyone left. After about a half hour of doing random poses ( I can’t figure out a good sequence for myself) , I decided that I would attempt to meditate for the hundredth time…well, it was going really good I thought…and then I woke up an hour later laying on the floor in my...
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just breathe.
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I like that the people that I live with KNOW that I have to be at work at 7 am to work my third consecutive twelve hour shift and they are being loud as fuck.
Thank you! I respect ya’ll too.
Seriously considering moving into my fucking car.
fuck.my.bullshit.life.
